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Quoting Bladewing:
You want the good life, you break your back
...ahh, now I gotta listen to it Monsta. I liked you for a reason I guess. Yer not afraid of speaking yer mind. I'd like to hear more often how things are going better. Irritation is hard to direct properly. I am at the moment talking to an old friend to diffuse my own angst so I can deal civilly with someone else. But gaddam, Prong does say it all with that song at times, no?
At this moment I am at the same place. Tired of people and hacving some small savings thinking how it can best be applied for my own sense of freedom. Humans are going the way of the dodo. I relate to so few of em due to experieces that put me on the outskits of normal that I want to cut ties. I have been cutting tied for some time now. After years of over-insensitive family drama, they have been let loose. Another friend last night.
So in doing I have the reality of it. Now what? You wanted it, now ya got it. Freedom. I wanted it before and wound up in the same grind eventually. Couldn't wait years ago to get away from an ex and stepdaughter, then when I was free had no idea what to do and floundered for a time. Then I get caught up in more people's nets.
We are by nature horridly failed specimens.
I am a cold hearted bastard these days, but there are moments and people who catch my attention, who I would like to hold and say, HANG ON! So you are that one , Bonnster. We are in similar though different straits. I am free and single with no responsibilities, but am looking at things through the same lens.
I want out, away from people, from their warped perceptions, away from their neurotic shit that try to pile on me to justify their weaknesses. We are all weak, even the strong.
Ya know, Bonnster, what I'd like to do is hang out with you and a few others here and get righteously pissed around a good blazing bonfire, swap stories, bad jokes, sing badly, and be really happy. Cause I think most of us need it. And I'd hug you and listen to your anger and try to let you know somehow it will work out, even if it doesn't the way we expect it to, or want it to. Things work out like train wrecks in my life. Surviving it to come out battered on the other side to carry on is all I hope for most days.
You want the good life, you break your back
...ahh, now I gotta listen to it Monsta. I liked you for a reason I guess. Yer not afraid of speaking yer mind. I'd like to hear more often how things are going better. Irritation is hard to direct properly. I am at the moment talking to an old friend to diffuse my own angst so I can deal civilly with someone else. But gaddam, Prong does say it all with that song at times, no?
At this moment I am at the same place. Tired of people and hacving some small savings thinking how it can best be applied for my own sense of freedom. Humans are going the way of the dodo. I relate to so few of em due to experieces that put me on the outskits of normal that I want to cut ties. I have been cutting tied for some time now. After years of over-insensitive family drama, they have been let loose. Another friend last night.
So in doing I have the reality of it. Now what? You wanted it, now ya got it. Freedom. I wanted it before and wound up in the same grind eventually. Couldn't wait years ago to get away from an ex and stepdaughter, then when I was free had no idea what to do and floundered for a time. Then I get caught up in more people's nets.
We are by nature horridly failed specimens.
I am a cold hearted bastard these days, but there are moments and people who catch my attention, who I would like to hold and say, HANG ON! So you are that one , Bonnster. We are in similar though different straits. I am free and single with no responsibilities, but am looking at things through the same lens.
I want out, away from people, from their warped perceptions, away from their neurotic shit that try to pile on me to justify their weaknesses. We are all weak, even the strong.
Ya know, Bonnster, what I'd like to do is hang out with you and a few others here and get righteously pissed around a good blazing bonfire, swap stories, bad jokes, sing badly, and be really happy. Cause I think most of us need it. And I'd hug you and listen to your anger and try to let you know somehow it will work out, even if it doesn't the way we expect it to, or want it to. Things work out like train wrecks in my life. Surviving it to come out battered on the other side to carry on is all I hope for most days.
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